Growing up and being so uncomfortable in my body, going through all the awkward male puberty changes that I wish I didnt have to experience. I was just alive and not living then. There is alot of things I feel like I missed out on growing up, wanting to have different memories when i look back at my childhood and teenage years. I believe everything happens for a reason and this was the path I was supposed to go down. Im incredibly happy and fortunate that im able to live as my authentic self, even though we live in such a hateful world where others dont understand my existence. I just wish people would have empathy and patience and a little more understanding. Little B if I can go back in time and tell you that things will get easier I would, but things were rough and there will be moments along the way that you felt like you weren't going to make it any further but you kept pushing yourself because you knew that you'd eventually get to where you are at today. I am alot stronger than I expected and this journey is not for the weak.